bad start to the year

Whenever I have more than 1 day of losing/break even play I start feeling doubt and tell myself to stop tilting. But I look at the graph and feel better b/c I'd be at 2.5BB/100 if I were running neutral. However, I feel like 3BB/100 is what I'm capable of and I know there are a lot of spew spots where I told myself to bet/fold but ended up bet/calling b/c wtf is that line other than another suckout. I've also gotten in a few over shove spots with nut hands being called by really bad players. Another fortunate side to this stretch is that it is happening my last week of full time office work instead of next week.

dec results and 2009 goals

I feel like I played poorly for different stretches causing me to lose in non showdown pots. Overall though I'm still pretty happy with the month.

Goals for the year:
1.5 million hands
500,000 vpps
nl200 as my primary game by april
nl400 as primary game by october
$80k in total profit
play a big live event
learn omaha

The purpose of the hands goal is to hit 500k vpps so if I move up I won't actually have to play that many hands to hit it. If I maintain my 3BB/100 win rate solely playing nl100 it will only take me 1.33 million hands to hit $80k which doesn't factor in bonus at all.

It should be a great year

general stuff and end of year

I didn't play a ton over the Christmas holiday. I should surpass my most hands in a month by a few 1000. Starting in January I should be hitting 100k hands regularly
Only 2 more weeks of full time work and I can't freaking wait. This place sucks the life out of me. I don't have plans yet for new years and my gf is going out of town.

Looking back on a year is always a bit strange because it's easier to look back on a school year + summer. A year ago I was living large playing live 1-2 and moved up to 2-5 when I took a shot with $1500. lol That is so sad. I went broke when my hot streak turned cold, got a job, and started the trek online. Summer kind of seems like a blur but consisted of going to denton, tx to stay in a 3 bedroom apt alone while playing poker, video games, drinking and hanging out with my gf.
Since moving to nl100 4 months ago I paid off my credit card, bought a truck, have 2k in savings, and at the moment have 44 buyins online. The whole year up to the last few months I was on a strict budget. I'd get paid on the 10th and pay 3-400 on my credit card and 50 on my student loan leaving myself with about $250 for 2 weeks of food/beer/entertainment. Then I'd use the paycheck on the 25th to pay for the apartment have $250 left over.
It's kind of sad that the highlight of this year was going to Austin when I first got staked.