still hate everything

I've had a few points where I had a lot to say but just didn't get around to posting about it. I started off last week playing horribly for 3 days. I finally got a handle on what I was doing and thinking through a hand for the next 2 days. Then today came and I'm playing great and planning ahead in hands. My slansky line is going up again despite getting aces over kings 2-3 times more in a day than the other way around.
I thought I'd be playing tons of hands every day and rolling in money. I guess I'm glad this is happening now so that I know what it's like instead of making and spending a lot still being on a somewhat short bankroll and going on uncontrollable monkey tilt. I realize now that 40 buyins isn't that much when tilting and running bad coincide while playing 4 hours a day.
Trying to look at the bright side I should have been up $300 today despite aa > kk coolers and bluffing into the nuts twice.
The side of things is that I was down again. Even though $30 is nothing having another loss is eating at me.

i hate 09

The month so far... It's missing about 3k hands but I think it says it all. I'm not playing well as a result of running so bad.

last day

It's my last day of full time. I went to the dentist while I still have the benefit and now my teeth are sore. I've been here for about 11 months and I'm trying to get some of the vacation time that I would have gotten.

Other than that I'm up a solid $14 after 15k hands. If you have 3-5 outs you're good. Yesterday I had a 60% vpip idiot always limping in late position while i was in the blind and on either 4-5 hands I would bet the flop with the best hand and he'd always hit the next card, whether it was the turn or river.

I picked up a Toshiba X305-Q705. 4gb ram. 64bit windows. 17" screen. geforce 9700m. core 2 duo P7350. My setup is pretty sweet now using that for hem and my 24" screen for the tables. I've been using the trial software of hem and it is very nice and fast. My only problem is that I haven't been able to find a player search feature. In order to get stats on someone it either takes forever for me to scroll through the list or I have to use the hud, which is a good one and easy to use. With a hud I tend to get in call down mode against fish b/c they all play too loose and I never give credit.

I plan to look into the differences between hem and pokerev and their equity calculations. I loaded at least 95% of my hands into hem last night before I went to bed. It shows me as about $1000 over expectation while using pokerev's street by street analysis puts me under by a few hundred.